What's your calling?
In the past several years, I've felt drawn to a closer connection with my religion and to a sense of faith. That has led to, amongst other things, this blog. I find, however, that what I had hoped to gain from this experience I do not always gain. I find myself weekly contemplating letting this effort go as a good idea that either never came to fruition or that simply was at the wrong time.
At the same time, I find myself wondering if my chosen profession is what I really want. The more I learn about the fields I study, the more I see their dark sides, the things that make the daily grind miserable. I at one time loved what I do, but with each day that excitement wanes. I fear what I really enjoy is novelty, the idea of pursuing something new, the idea of overcoming a new challenge. If that's true, must I change careers every few years just to stay stimulated? Is it possible I'm going through a quarter-life crisis, and if so, is my indecision merely something to acknowledge, or am I really on the wrong track?
What am I supposed to do? How do I decide whether to continue this blog, continue my studies, start my life anew? Where does guidance come from? I want to believe that there's a proper path for each person, a way of living life that will bring fulfillment and happiness. How do I find that path? Is the path a set of decisions I make in this world, or within my own heart and mind, or a little of both? Are there signs to guide my way?
I remember the scene where Bruce Nolan, before he becomes Almighty, is given many (literal) signs and he misses them all. Am I missing my signs? Have there been hints at to where I will succeed, where I am most needed, and most importantly where I'll be most happy? I don't believe God will step down from Heaven and hand me a memo stating what I'm supposed to do, but harkening back to some of our earlier discussions on this blog, I do think there is divine guidance to be found in the events of the day-to-day. I just wish I knew how to understand those signs.
Do you believe you have a calling? If yes, have you found it? How did or will you find it? What do the signs look like? What guidance can you share with others?
Labels: God, happiness, profession